If I Could Turn Back Time

I wasn’t going to post again today simply because I’m tired; but you know how it is when you find new energy…  And when your topic is the title of a Cher song, well, who wouldn’t jump up to post?

Tonight’s Daily Prompt topic is this.

If you could return to the past to relive a part of your life, either to experience the wonderful bits again, or to do something over, which part of you life would you return to? Why?

Well, there are a few things I could imagine being present for again because they were filled with such incredible happiness.

  • My wedding day — start of a new life with the woman I love so much.
  • The births of my children — being transformed from Harvey to “Daddy”.

Then there are moments that were peaceful.

  • That time after my son was born when we took a six week road trip — our new family spending time together exploring this great land.
  • The time after my daughter was born — snow falling, fire burning in the fireplace, sleeping baby in the arms of sleeping Daddy.

Doing something over?

  • I might have asked my wife out sooner, like when we first met ten years earlier.
  • Perhaps I could have thought out my career arc a little better.
  • I definitely would have started working out, running, whatever when I was in my teenage years.  I think it would have helped me develop the habit much earlier.
  • Maybe I wouldn’t pursue that second Master’s Degree.  So far, it’s brought me nothing but increased debt and increased doubt (that I’ll ever advance beyond my current job).

But a moment in which I would love to find myself again is any moment before the death of my twin sister.  We were so young when she died I really have no memories of her.  I just want a memory, something to hold in my mind.

twins crib

One of the few pictures of me and my twin.

Fortunately, for all the dumb things I’ve done in my life God doesn’t allow do-overs of this sort; that is, actually going back in time.  If He let us go back only for the things we wanted to, it wouldn’t be just.  Quite frankly, I don’t want to go back on some of the stupid things and bad choices, like my sins.  I’m thrilled to leave them where they belong — in the past where I can’t do anything about them and they are locked forever.


One response to “If I Could Turn Back Time

  1. A 6 week road trip!!! That sounds like fun and not fun at the same time. I use to always want to drive across the country with my kids. I guess it’s not too late

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